I've changed my thinking in regards to mom. I don't feel like she's dying any time soon. I'm really excited that they are putting her on an antidepressant. Mom wakes up in the middle of the night or early in the morning. Then she goes down the list of children and begins to worry. For example: for me she worries that I'm going to be murdered by gangsters because I walk to work so early in the morning. Margaret is going to slip and fall when she goes out to feed the cattle and freeze to death. She starts worrying with Beverly and goes down the list including all of the grandchildren and their spouses. It's not an exaggeration to say that she worries about everyone and everything. I think she would like to take more morphine during the day except that it causes constipation. I think it would be more beneficial to take it more often. I'm not so sure that the panic attacks have a physiological base as they do an emotional one. I basically thought that she was dying. I had given up hope. Now I feel that she could be around for a long time. I don't thinks she's going anytime soon. I wouldn't be surprised to see her pulling in for her birthday. Dads been having problems with his irregular heartbeat. He has an appointment on the 12th to have it checked. I've encouraged him to eat more oranges and bananas that can help offset arrhythmias. But the underlying problem for Dad is emotional stress related to Moms condition. When you've been the provider and the protector of your wife all of your life and you can no longer save her-it is difficult to bear. Spread the word about blogging on this new sight!
Gil
p.s. I still can't access this site from work. Travis composed this message for me. So, if there are any errors you decide whose fault it is

My father says that this blog sight isn't working, so I'm trying to see if he's wrong or right

I have tried to get into the original blog site and can't do it. It says the page is nolonger available, so I made another site. The password is bbkrehmeyer@yahoo.com and password is still latimer. If anyone else can get into the old site, let me know. Bev.